Nothing inspires human heart as
much as the Truth. I have tried in my best reckoning to put together some truth
and ask you to read this passage with the lenses of you Heart. Truth of this
life of fleeting attachments, deceptive temptations and foul love...is...that
it is a Matrix of Disappointments. Unless you realize... that.... All
attachments are fleeting away may it be the love of your life, closest
relations, friends, pets n so on...either you will leave them one day or they
will be taken out of your life leaving you with hurt and emotional pain. Try
and understand that an attachment in love with a person or thing which has to
perish and leave you with pain is basically an illusion. Love must not leave you
in Pain. How can true love walk out on you ever?
Temptations are ever so
deceptive...our passion for sins...may it be sin of curiosity, original sin or
not so original sins...it is an unending, un-satiating pursuit of a Mirage but
we never seem to get enough of it. Every temptation leads to a sin and every
sin adds to the skyscraper of Regret and Remorse.
Finally, the misunderstood
concept of Love which rots like a hidden dead rat and we never really find out
what is wrong there. Understand that human heart is as vast as an ocean. Default
mechanism of human heart is not designed to accommodate love of anything of
this world. Filling your heart with love of Dunya is like filling the space of
an ocean with a drop of water. And then we complain of emptiness and sadness.
We have tried to invent ways to remedy this by playing video games, eating outs,
smoking weed, taking hallucinogens, drinking, clubbing, listening to mind
numbing music and throwing up all day next day …but… the moment our minds
regain full consciousness…that sadness intensifies and that emptiness deepens.
Instead of relief, our remedy back fires and continues to eat up on us. It is
like taking cancer inducing drug for migraine. How absurd? Car makers issue
manual which we look up for troubleshooting. Likewise, our Creator has issued a
Manual to treat all our spiritual, moral, social and physical imperfections.
And who knows the creation better than the Creator? Back to human heart, this pumping
device is the only divine piece of equipment in human make up. It only is
designed for love of Allah. Once this ocean is filled with its true waters, the
droplet of Dunya's love will find its place there somewhere.
We continue to fail to understand
the real face of these attachments, temptations and love of Dunya and remain
sucked up in Matrix of Disappointments. Our only logical attachment is with
Allah who created our souls on one day. We never really bother to look back in
time that we had an oath of allegiance with Allah before coming to this world
who puffed His soul in a clot of blood in a womb. He thus became our only
relation before coming to this world. Protected, guided and made real nice
arrangements for us as we arrived helpless in this world. Couple parents, nice
shelter, siblings, appointed guardian angels on us, provided us with food all
these years, carried us through times when we thought that even our shadows
left us. He has already arranged food and shelter till our last day on earth. Can
you find such unconditional love in this world in any relation or thing to
which you feel attached to? Could there be any better attachment than the
attachment with Allah? A premanent attachment without any fear of detachment
ever. He is The Greatest, He is the most Merciful. Among these countless
blessings He gave us Freewill. Our own wish and will to go about life.
Remember, Devil incites your temptation, but it is you who decides to tread the
sinful path. Life is just a little test to resist our temptations for a very
short time and reward is promised in eternal peace and Jannah. But we thought
this world is Jannah. All the pleasure, all the joy must come our way fast and
now. And we cross the line. Commit sins. We fall prey to the trap. Just like a
fly which ends up in a cobweb for her love of untamed curiosity. If this Dunya
was to become Jannah then the whole issue of creation becomes pointless. In
which case what would be the point of holding Jannah in store for us? We stuff
our heart with love of Dunya and sink deeper in to the quagmire of sins. Not
paying heed to repeated reminders in Quran about the worthlessness of love of
this Dunya. Just like our loving mothers who repeatedly tells us to wear warm
clothing so that we do not catch cold, He keeps warning us in Quran one and the
same thing again and again. Is there a better example of love in this world
than that of a mother. Well ! put together love of seventy mothers and
counting...He still loves you more.
Do you still want to fill your
heart with love of Dunya? Will you continue the futile toil of filling an ocean
with a drop? Are you still willing to trade an ocean of love with a worthless
droplet? If so, then you would not escape that haunting emptiness of your
heart.
Today all the jigsaw pieces of my
journey have been put together in front of you in the shape of whole truth. I am
sure even if we persist to maintain the apparent state of denial; our hearts
are always attracted to truth. Today the speaker was my heart and the
audience...your heart. My tumultuous journey of disappointments is aligning to
a steady route and attaining a tranquil pace. The voids are filling up with
Love. All my fears were derivatives of my desires. But now they float between
hopes and fears. I feared that time was running out and always questioned, Have
I Gained Enough? My fear remains the same i.e. the time is slipping through but
the fear has taken a different face i.e. Have I Given Enough? Have I been able
to payback? Have I contributed my bit to life. But these words give me hope
that they will tingle your heart. They will leave a little mark. You will share
these thoughts with someone else. Light of hope will kindle in few other hearts
weary of emptiness. We all shall then continue our eternal journey to our
eternal destination. To a place, where our Host will be Allah Himself. He will
throw feasts to His Loved ones. He will even serve drinks to His Chosen ones. I
may not be among those but from among the lowest of the crowd I may get His glimpse.
A look of the One who created all the that we perceive as Beautiful. The One who
taught our perceptions to perceive Beauty. Should I not trade all these
fleeting attachments, those deceptive temptations and love of Dunya for that
permanent attachment, absolute truth and real love?
Only Allah knows what is right.
Share your thoughts on my sketchy
and obscure thoughts and stay blessed.
